envious impostor

I spent the majority of the weekend with people! A family. It was absolutley wonderful. I could be with them forever. They love eachother. You can tell. You can see it. I think I am envious. I think that's what I felt today, for that one moment, when I, despite being really happy, quite suddenly had such an incredibly overwhelming "agh" feeling in the pit of my stomach, and had to fight back the tears. Sigh.

I wish...I wish I belonged.

I wish I wasn't just an envious impostor.